Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Quick Note--and Wow! 2 Posts in less than 24 hours!

After going back and reading some of my recent posts, I am embarrassed by my tone.

Some of the posts sound so...biting, or sassy. Not the cute kind of sassy. The kind where your mom says, 'don't sass me, girl'. That kind. I don't like that at all.

I don't really feel much anger about this whole thing. Some may say that I should feel more. But, I don't. I mean, I DO feel some sometimes, but I really try not to let it grow or fester. Hmm. Grow or Fester. Two very different verbs...both accurate descriptions about what anger can do in our hearts.

Anyway. I guess what I'm trying to say here is, please do not judge me by my most recent posts. I think this 'time to breathe' and 'girl time' has been a little too 'Steel Magnolias' for my blogging attitude. If that makes any sense. It probably doesn't.

But this is how I really feel:

"Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God." 1 John 4:7

I stumbled across this scripture a few weeks ago while teaching the kids at church. Stopped me in my tracks and I had to regain my composure before continuing my lesson...on love and families. I know, right?! Anyway. THAT is how I feel. Not sass. Well, unless you mean the cute kind. ; )


8 comments:

jmn2001 said...

That actually is from my favorite chapter in the whole Bible..and here's my favorite three verses from it:

18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.
19 We love him, because he first loved us.
20 If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen?

I'll try and remember that too in my responses.

S.

MiMi said...

I'll try not to be so snarky. Can't make any promises, but I'll try!

Alicia said...

I don't think you have any need to apologize. This is your safe place. Use it. Get it all out here so it doesn't come out somewhere else (unless it needs to).

mama-face said...

You are the best kind of sass. Truly.

What you said about what REAL love is in Monday's post really struck me. I'm struggling to know how you are handling all this and the fact that you can keep your head together and recognize what you should say and do...whether or not he is hearing it right now. Reading those words opened my eyes a bit to the source of your strength...which I should have known all along. Just kind of slow, I am.

hugs.

The Johnson Family said...

I agree with all above. It is better to get all the sass and anger out here than other places.
It's like when you re-read your diary and it is full of drama or negativity, etc. and then you realize that was your venting so that you don't vent elsewhere.
You are still amazing!
How are things going now that your vacation is over?

wonder woman said...

I don't think you've been sassy at all. Maybe it's just because I don't really know you and so what I get here is all I know, but I've never thought "sassy."

This blog, even more than "regular" blogs, is a place for you to vent. I think we all understand that this is not really who you are. You are much more than a woman in the position you are in. You are a devoted wife, loving mother, faithful follower of Christ, and so much more. This blog is for dealing with a particular and difficult issue, and so it's different.

You are not sassy. You are strong. And Steel Magnolia's has a good amount of both of those things.

Penelope said...

omg...my heart feels pain reading your story. my heart would have a permanent scar if I had to go through this. I'm so very, very sorry. that other woman is a bad person for reaching out to a married man. i'm sorry he was not wiser (why did he need to see her in person to hash anything out that first trip? why couldn't he just defriend her on facebook?)

honestly, a therapist would say that if he wants to save this marriage, he needs to be an open book, and not to ANYTHING that would make you feel unsure. and if that means he can't take his cell phone (or needs to change the number- oh well if some other people lose touch with him too, he has to suffer some inconveniences to save his marriage, which is a priority) then he should do it.

I'll pray for you, and hope this works out well. It's a very bad woman who keeps reaching out to a man that is married, unless he is lying to her and saying he is divorced/separated/having major problems and almost out of the marriage. who knows what is going on here? i will also pray that that woman gets some sense and steps away from damaging this.

What G-d puts together, no earthly power should tear asunder, not man, woman, anything or anyone. when he married you, he should have put all ex'es away, from his heart and mind, because he became one with you. this is truly a devastating thing.

Penelope said...

An ex of mine (married) reached out to me on facebook too. My husband hates facebook...he said it's just another internet thing to cause destruction. He may be right...aside from once in a while having an old friend say "Hey, haven't spoken to you in 20 years! Well, hope all is well" there isn't much value in it. The people I love most in the world and keep in touch with most, I talk to by email, phone, and see in person. Facebook is quite unnecessary.